and then she'd say
"It's alright, I got home
late last night
but I'm a super girl
and supergirls just fly"
and then she'd laugh
the night time into day
pushing her fear
further alone
and then she'd shout
down the line
tell me she's got
no more time
cause she's a supergirl
and supergirls don't cry
and then she'd say
"It's ok, I got lost on the way
but I'm a supergirl
and supergirls don't cry"
"And I want to play hide-and-seek and give you my clothes and tell you I
like your shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath and massage
your neck and kiss your feet and hold your hand and go for a meal and
not mind when you eat my food and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the
day and type up your letters and carry your boxes and laugh at your
paranoia and give you tapes you don't listen to and watch great films
and watch terrible films and complain about the radio and take pictures
of you when you're sleeping and get up to fetch you coffee and bagels
and Danish and go to Florent and drink coffee at midnight and have you
steal my cigarettes and never be able to find a match and tell you about
the tv programme I saw the night before and take you to the eye
hospital and not laugh at your jokes and want you in the morning but let
you sleep for a while and kiss your back and stroke your skin and tell
you how much I love your hair your eyes your lips your neck your breasts
your arse your
and sit on the steps smoking till your neighbour comes home and sit on the steps smoking till you
come home and worry when you're late and be amazed when you're early
and give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance till I'm black
and be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me and look at
your photos and wish I'd known you forever and hear your voice in my ear
and feel your skin on my skin and get scared when you're angry and your
eye has gone red and the other eye blue and your hair to the left and
your face oriental and tell you you're gorgeous and hug you when you're
anxious and hold you when you hurt and want you when I smell you and
offend you when I touch you and whimper when I'm next to you and whimper
when I'm not and dribble on your breast and smother you in the night
and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don't and melt
when you smile and dissolve when you laugh and not understand why you
think I'm rejecting you when I'm not rejecting you and wonder how you
could think I'd ever reject you and wonder who you are but accept you
anyway and tell you about the tree angel enchanted forest boy who flew
across the ocean because he loved you and write poems for you and wonder
why you don't believe me and have a feeling so deep I can't find words
for it and want to buy you a kitten I'd get jealous of because it would
get more attention than me and keep you in bed when you have to go and
cry like a baby when you finally do and get rid of the roaches and buy
you presents you don't want and take them away again and ask you to
marry me and you say no again but keep on asking because though
you think I don't mean it I do always have from the first time I asked
you and wander the city thinking it's empty without you and want what
you want and think I'm losing myself but know I'm safe with you and tell
you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you
don't deserve any less and answer your questions when I'd rather not and
tell you the truth when I really don't want to and try to be honest
because I know you prefer it and think it's all over but hang on in for
just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life and forget
who I am and try to get closer to you because it's beautiful learning to
know you and well worth the effort and speak German to you badly and
Hebrew to you worse and make love with you at three in the morning and
somehow somehow somehow communicate some of the overwhelming undying
overpowering unconditional all-encompassing heart-enriching
mind-expanding on-going never-ending love I have for you."
